Yes we have something to say.
Dear Child of God,
Dear goddess, the reason for your discomfort with people is because you are selecting the wrong people to associate with. This stems from feelings of unworthiness. This is not meant as a judgment dear one, for you have been hurt and disappointed in the past. You are a very powerful priestess and have had past lives in which others turned against you out of jealousy. Even your family. You were turned in and burned at the stake. You must release these past lives. Although you may not be able to easily tap into them now, this will change in the future/year to come. Release the old pain that is no longer serving you. Do not approach new relationships/friendships and make them pay due for what others did to you in the past. This is a two way street. As you project on others, they serve as a mirror. Remember, all people in your life are a mirror of who you are in that moment. Do not judge others, or get angry, but be grateful for the lessons they are teaching you for they are indeed your great teachers that are reflecting to you that what must be healed in you. The “triggers” are what you need to face about and heal about yourself. How do you do this? It is actually quite simple. Love. Put love into every situation, every encounter. Send mentally compassion to others. Forgive others. This is crucial. We know you have ancient wisdom and know how to do this. First step is focusing only on yourself. The time and energy you spend loving and caring for others, now turn onto yourself. You deserve love. First it must come from within. It is okay to enjoy being with yourself. And as your vibration gets higher, the right people will automatically come into your life. And the wrong ones will quickly drop off. The women in your current group are all looking for the same thing as you, love and acceptance. However, they don’t know how to get it therefore they are working on the surface in hopes it will work its way out. It must first begin within. You already know what styles and colors work on you and enjoy assisting others to do this.
This all comes down to assisting women to feel good about themselves, to accept and love themselves. They are all seeking outwardly for validation, approval or insight. This all comes from within. However, sometimes the outside propels and inspires change on the inside. You may do this. The reason you do not enjoy doing therapy anymore is because it feels one sided. To discuss issues round and round, you feel you are not of service anymore. And you are right. Although you are a healer and alchemist, the institutional way is no longer working for you. Like other spiritual teachers who began in institutions, they eventually had felt their higher calling to utilize their intuitive and spiritual skills. To do more holistic and spiritual approaches. This can be achieved with which ever avenue to decide to take. Follow your heart, beloved, allow your Passion to drive your course. Not stability and safety. For as long as you do what is in your heart, and follow your intuition and guidance, abundance Will be yours. Guaranteed!
First the love, then the joy, then the prosperity will come. It will be simultaneous. This next year is a powerful year for changes and manifesting. Use it! Take a chance! Jump of the cliff and find your wings. Fly!
Yes, we have something else to say. You need to forgive your brother. This still ways on you. It is time to cut the cords. As Archangel Michael to assist you. Say “I call on Archangel Michael, I ask that you please cut all cords that no longer serve me. Please heal these severed cords. And surround me in your royal purple color”. This will cut cords with even those people you are not aware you are still attached to.
Your Mother needs to be forgiven. Forgive her. Release it. For it no longer serves you. The reason you were given the most challenging relationships/family members is because these are the people in your past lives that did the most damage to you. It is time to release yourself from them. With love and compassion. For them, for yourself. For as the planet ascends to a higher frequency and to the 5th dimension, they will only hold you back and become more painful. When they need not be. This life time, you selected to have these people in your life so you may end the karmic cycle with them. As Gaia has entered into the 4th dimension, all Karmic contracts are coming to an end. And the New Earth begins, full of joy, love and abundance! Think of it this way dear one, they are not really your family members but old acquaintances you had a falling out with. Now you have been put together to with them to release all bad feelings. Free yourself dear one. You know how to do this. Just let it go. And you will feel so much lighter. Make love and compassion your main priority. If you are doing something, do it because you want to and it makes you happy. Or don’t do it!! You do not owe anyone anything. This is not meant to be negative, for thinking of yourself first, what is good for your highest self is self-love.
Love yourself. True friends and people who really love you will honor this. Those who do not, let them go for they are no good for you. They use you and drain you. Again, release them with love and compassion. Forgive them for any wrong they did you. And forgive yourself for putting up with it as long as you did. You do not have to be right all the time, in a sense of debate and hostility. Nor engage with or tolerate this from others. Do not be afraid to love. We know even reading the word makes you cringe.
What that feeling is, is fear. Fear of being hurt, of being vulnerable. Do you put up a wall of facts and pretenses? Be your glorious self. For if you could only see yourself how we see you, you would see the radiating, wise and strong goddess that you are. Surround yourself with like-minded people who support you and are open to your views. Leave the rest behind!
We love you and are so very loved. As Sabina has mentioned in the healing portion (I wrote that portion first and did your healing before doing the reading) you have many who love you, guide you and protect you. We are so proud of you and love you so very much. You are Never Alone. We are real, and we are always with you (I just felt you will feel warmth and an expansion of your heart in this moment).
(Lots of energy for this reading. My computer was going crazy, fonts kept changing and letters repeating on their own. You are beginning to grow into your powers and your energy is getting stronger/higher. Keep going!)
Healing:
Now I know why I waited to do your healing. I got a new Citrine crystal today and the angels had me use it for your healing. I did this at sunset for maximum impact.
A first for me. You were in water, inside a cave and the water was glowing green. Green is the color of healing. I invited your guides and angels to participate in your healing (also a first as I did all other healings myself) and 5 goddesses joined. The healing was done in the water with you floating, like a communion. The goddesses stood around you and I stood at your feet. We healed your stomach/digestive problems. Then your entire body. You may feel prickly sensation for a day or two, like pins and needles. Then we healed your sexual trauma in your vaginal area. It bloomed and opened like a flower. Isis was there for this. This was a body healing. Then we worked on your higher-self and cleared your chakras. Your solar plexus was very blocked and when it cleared I felt it very powerfully. Your heart chakra was also in need of deep clearing. You will begin to feel much better as this will heal your digestive, sexual and fibromyalgia.
Each of the goddesses put an amulet around your neck for protection and continued healing. You were a goddess in a robe and had a crescent moon painted on your forehead. You were a priestess in Lemuria and have a strong connection to water. You probably felt this when you recently visited the ocean. Make it a point to visit water, ocean, lake or river as often as you can for it brings you healing and balance. I sense you may be moving somewhere closer to water in the near future. Go into the New Year revitalized and joyous for many blessings and changes are heading your way. All good ones! Blessed be.
